For the past 7 months... it's been a blur to me. After having so many meltdowns and anxiety attacks, I've become so numb that I can hardly feel much emotion at all anymore. I cannot laugh or cry. It's getting more and more difficult to laugh, joke around, and crack a huge smile, while it used to be so easy for me as a former class clown. I've been wandering around aimlessly like a tired zombie, trying to find a sense of direction to go along with my new sense of purpose.

But despite all that, I'm okay. I'm out of my art block again and I've been working on a romance based drawing in order to warm myself up for Jivra's trade (couples aren't exactly my cup of tea at the moment) and got some others being planned out as we speak.

I've been also putting a lot of thought into my live journal account as well. Because of the recent problems I've been having with people getting upset with me when I just wanted to vent, I was toying with the idea of deleting my account. But I just came to the conclusion that I'll keep my midnight21 account for photos, unfinished artwork, fandom babblings, and undecoded dreams. I also intend to keep in touch with some friends there too. I've moved my personal stuff to twilight2008 now and it will be friends only, only allowing a few trusted friends to see the material. At least it will be easier on everyone that way. If you wish to be added, it's fine. let me know and I'll add you back most likely. But I must warn you that it might not be a bed of sweet roses and shiny things.

Well, that's about it I guess. Stay tuned for more updates and feel free to drop a line in the shoutbox and check out my stamp collection! *Shakes fist at for getting me addicted to them